Haix

I miss you but what can i do? I am losing hope as my opponent seems to be better than me and for you... i dont think i stand a chance, should i give it up? Haix... just wanna know how you feel about me.

.

Please tell me why

Sick

Haiz... feeling extremely sick ATM fever n sore throat ... also stop hot n colding me as I'm getting a flu miss u gal

Free Style *Y (Please Tell Me Why)*

My baby~ I love you so much forever you and I
I love you oh~I love you so much forever you and I
My baby~ I love you so much forever you and I
I love you oh~I love you so much forever you and I

There's no way to turn back times that past
And all your worries, growing one by one, are my fault
The day passes by, another one, they have no meaning to me
This place, without you, doesn't give me any sense of living.
TELL ME~

PLEASE TELL ME WHY~
why did you leave me?
PLEASE TELL ME WHY~
leave me, who loves you?~ TELL ME
PLEASE TELL ME WHY~
come back to me~
we will forget all painful memories and start over
BABY~

YOU ASK GIRLFRIEND
how have you been? You do know it too - I was a fool
I feel like i lost something, inside there
like there's a hole in my chest, empty, forever
tears that once started flowing don't seem to ever dry away
if you could see myself, walking along the streets
you used yo walk by, hoping to meet you by chance
it's because of you~ MY GIRL
because i don't know, if you want to see the place we used to go together once more
come back to me MY SWEET HEART

PLEASE TELL ME WHY~
why did you leave me?
PLEASE TELL ME WHY~
leave me, who loves you?~ TELL ME
PLEASE TELL ME WHY~
come back to me~
we will forget all painful memories and start over
BABY~
Im here
Always waiting for you
What shall i do? Is there really no way to turn time back?
Come back to me~

Haiz

突然好想你 :(

:'(

Its just so hard and painful to let it go... saw you again when i was otw home waiting at the busstop, your laughter is very... nice yet painful, horrible feeling... just looking at you having fun playing around while i sit there quietly thinking thinking thinking

:'(

I tell myself i will forget you at least till exam over... i know i cant get you if i cant get you n be with u, u r just a stumbling block i will get pass this stumbling block and do my best, idc le, since u liddat fine lorh i will get over it

.

You are making me crazy... dont hot n cold n ignore lorh... i cant stand u ignoring... pls dont....... :'(

S2

I MISS EU </3

Sad

I WANT U IF NOT I CANT DO ANYTHING MY MIND IS ALL ABOUT U IF U CAN JUST SAY SOMETHING TO MOTIVATE ME I CAN DO ANYTHING I JUST NEED YOU

关怀方式

寂寞开在心事旁
随手种一些伤感
不让星星来窥探
找个沉默的夜晚

找个沉默的夜晚
不让星星来窥探
随手种一些伤感
寂寞开在心事旁

我的关怀方式
是你无法察觉的悲凉
只能在你不经意时
才锁上我心房

你往常的亲切友善
是我今生的遗憾
受伤后无悔的埋在
不流露的脸上

:'(

Watched gangster 15.... just had the feeling that life seriously sucks... and importance of loyalty and trust... and now abit no mood do anything... felt that life sucks to the max and no one really cared about me... even if they did i dont like it... all i want to know is that she care for me and felt for me and i want to be with her... if i get her i can do anything for her

B'dae

Tomorrow will be my birthday cant wait... but scared will get scolded cos i dw do homework no mood do... and there is only one thing i truly want on my birthday, which is her accompanyment, even if i dont have everything but that i would live and die with no regrets

:>

Lol today is a prettie nice day :D cool weather and nice teachers generally... had alot of fun and caught her eye to eye with me for a few secs :D awesome cute sia she <3 just wish we could be tgt

:)

Today im in a good mood :D although damn warm cos of weather and my alcohol ytd but had a pretty nice sleep and managed to shot in some pretty nice shots and generally a nice day as never tio quacked or lim-ed. Hope it will stay this way tomorrow and for the rest of the week. Alcohol taste great and makes me sleep better so yeh it rocks... but still i miss her :l so from :D its :) just hope that i would get her someday hopefully soon

Eyes

Idk why but i like beautiful eyes

>:(

I told myself to give up as I know i would not be able to succeed even if i get the chance to do it but i cant let it go... why are you stuck in my head? i know the reason, it was all because of the text.... how i wish time could go back and we were like just friends and having fun... but i guess it wont happen... all i can do is to wish that things would change and i could be with you

不想放弃你

Song: 

至少还有你

我怕来不及 我要抱着你
直到看出你的皱纹 有了岁月的痕迹
直到肯定你是真的
直到失去力气
为了你 我愿意

动也不能动 也要看着你
直到看着你的发线 有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊
直到不能呼吸
让我们 形影不离

如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
只是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我总记得在那里

我怕来不及 我要抱着你
直到看着你的发线 有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊
直到不能呼吸
让我们 形影不离

如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
只是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我总记得在那里

我们好不容易 我们身不由己
我怕时间太快 不够将你看仔细
我怕时间太慢 日夜担心失去你
恨不得一夜之间白头 永不分离

如果全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹
也许全世界我也可以忘记
只是不愿意失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我总记得在那里
在那里

Dead

Omo... this blog is dead... but yeh will try to update it more wordpress and tumblr still da best ;)

Waiting...

Dear Mrs Lim... you may think that im a just incorrigible but i dont think so... its just that i hate you so much that i purposely did it... ill play along for now... since mr qwek is rather nice to me.... just watch out... i lost my last straw and i might explode any moment... trust me... when i explode its not gonna be nice... and felt so sad that my friends actually tricked me to see the bitch... but ya.... sorta expected it... really weird that all come together and find me... all i can do is blame myself... and so all i gotta say is... bitch you wanna play.. ill play along... it wont be gameover for me yet... you just wait

Sick

I am feeling sick.... been sick for a long time already... Was lovesick.... but now its not just lovesick... its physically sick and mentally unwell too... i am breaking down... down to the depths of hell... my head felt like as though there is someone squeezing its.... it felt heavy and i felt like fainting, Am i dying??? And i have no mood to do things such as homework.... there is no longer the spark in me to go on any further... there is no motivation for me to carry on.... there isnt anything worth me striving and working hard for... its really hard to carry on life like this... i hope i find my strive and will soon

For you Always

Love? What is love? I dont know but i do know that i love you alot and i would do anything for you.... Even if i have to die for you, i will do it as you mean the world to me and i hope we could be together, please let me into your world and ill protect you, be there for you when you need me, comfort you when you are down, celebrate joy together when you are happy, emo with you, fly with you, eat with you, look at you, ill do anything for you and with you and hope that this days will never end

I Love You Girl

Do you know that i love you? I wish that you knew and is willing to accept me... I dont know what is going on in your mind, how you felt about me and whether is there a chance for us to be together. Everytime i look at you, the sweet innocent face, it simply melts my heart, especially when you are concentrated in your work, your eyes is simply gorgeous. I wonder how would we turn out to be, I dare not ask you to stead with me or even tell you that i like you, i feel not im not fit for you but if you were to ask me i would gladly accept it but i doubt it would happen.... Girl i really like you and hope that one day we could be together, hope that it would be soon

Cheers
Your Secret Admirer

Look At Me

Haiz, its been in my mind for a while
Gotta let this off my chest
Before its, too late

Many times a day, I smile as I look at you
I told you hundreds of time "you're the love of my life"
In this fake world, in my anxious heart
You are just all I believe in
When sometimes you're anxious thinking my feelings might change
I tell you, smiling "that there isn't such thing"
In this endless wondering, in my empty heart
The place where I can rest is only you, but

Sometimes I hate my trembling self
Also today I'm swept away by this world, I secretly erase you
Even if I cheat, you don't ever cheat, cause I know I won't, and you won't too
Even if I forget you, you don't forget me
Even if sometimes I don't call you and I drink
And even if I lock gazes with other girls
You look only at me

That night you stayed up late waiting
You tell me in tears "I think you've changed"
Telling you that my feelings for you are the same as in the beginning
I comfort you repeatedly, so many nights
I think that being without you would be so hard for me, but
Sometimes because of you, I'm suffocated
In the endless fights, in a long sigh
Sometimes I hate myself for being annoyed by you
And also today as I smile I lost my mind without noticing

HATE U TTM

DAD! I HATE U ALOT! FOR RESTRICTING WHAT I DO! FORCING ME TO DO WHAT I DONT WANT. I HAVE MY RIGHTS TO CHOOSE WHAT I WANNA DO! STOP FORCING UR WAY IN ME!! I FKING BUAYSONG WITH U OK

Sian

Tomorrow is the meet the parents session.... so not looking forward to it... Father is coming, gonna have to act and pretend again that we are fine... hated him to the core... cant stand him man... try to talk less to him to minimise conflicts... why do the school even make parents to come compulsory, always hated going to meet the parents session. If we argue sibei paiseh de one... I wish i am overseas so i do not have to go to meet the parents... FML!

My Life Sucks

Life is getting boring day by day. It just seem to be a routine that goes on forever, wakeup, eat breakfast,maple,lunch,basketball,dinner,blackshot,watch tv and videos, read some books, sleep. Its all the same for almost everyday, I dont get the point of life, its boring and meaningless. How I wish that the special girl is with me, going on day by day with me, with her i believe my life would not be so meaningless, dull and boring. Now as I read posts on facebook and my friend's blogs, I am starting to get worried again for my results. I know I did not work hard as much as I should, but I would harder than ever before but still slacked much, I know what my results is going to be like and I do not really care as it does not makes a difference to me anyway, but i am still worried. Moving on, while i know my attitude to everything sucks pretty much but I dont get it why do i have to care so much about things such as scolding, not handing in work, slacking and thinking of her and playing. Life is so short, I would live my life to the fullest and not get myself worried for useless and stupid stuff. People just do not understand me, what I want, how i felt, I am a simple person but not so easy to understand. Bye, going to post again soon i hope.

T.T

如果全世界我也可以放弃,至少还有你值得我去珍惜

-.-'''

There is a reason behind everything, every action and every behaviour... well you just dont understand me and you dont know the true me so you dont have the fking right to comment.... only the true friends of mine know who i am, the person i am really not the usual me but the actual me. So dont give me shit and put me down with it as it doesnt work. GTFO n STFU....

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This week suxs.... geog exam killed me and ended up with no mood to do lit so i crapped everything and finish the paper and is thinking about my geog in my lit paper.... sci is rather ok but still worried!!! I DONT WANNA BE THE LAST FEW ANYLONGER! I WILL DO MY BEST AND SCORE BETTER! TRIPLE SCI HERE I COME!

童话

忘了有多久 
再没听到你 
对我说你最爱的故事 
我想了很久 
我开始慌了 
是不是我又做错了什么 
你哭着对我说 
童话里都是骗人的 
我不可能是你的王子 
也许你不会懂 
从你说爱我以后 
我的天空星星都亮了 
我愿变成童话里 
你爱的那个天使 
张开双手变成翅膀守护你 
你要相信 
相信我们会像童话故事里 
幸福和快乐是结局 

爱我别走

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
(music)
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

思念是一种病，而我病得佷严重

思念是一种病，
而我病得佷严重
想着她。。。我只能寞寞地想着她

歌词:

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现 已经 失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟 早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信 错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会 试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里 尤其在夜里
还是会想起 难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉 无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己 到底做了甚麼蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念 过去的一切
那些人事物 会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病 一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那麼美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事 停下了脚步
就怕你不说 就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续 一切都来得及
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Oh 思念是一种病
Oh 思念是一种病 一种病

Barely survived

Barely surviving this week with hoards of exams and homework i actually did some but my conduct grade and SEL is going to fail as i lost alot things in my file FML! next week is going to be worse but bare with it and last it all out RAWR!

EXAMS!

GOTTA FOCUS ON EXAMS! WHY I CANT FOCUS! WHY I KEPT THINK OF HER! NOT BLOGGING FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS! FOCUS ON THE EXAMS! AFTER EXAMS GO ALL OUT FOR IT!

HOO HAH!

Break Even

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

What Are Words?

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone


And I know an angel was sent
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

First Post!

Today my life begins.... A whole new life.... A life which im going to focus on and go all out for! RAWR!